{worries and risks}

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Saturday night, when we returned home from Michigan, I told Zack and if Gussy got any bigger then I would definitely be lacking in my housewife skillz. And I have mad housewife skillz. I think he was scared.

Actually, I might be scared. Some times I blank out and can’t believe that Gussy is Gussy. That I am Gussy. I can’t believe I’m typing these words right now, either. Recently, I have been chewing on the thought of attending Blissdom 2010. Then I looked at what it would cost for me to go. Then I looked at my Gussy business. Then I looked into attending for another few minutes.

Are you going to Blissdom? There are soooooooooooo many great people going that I want to meet. I have to meet them! :) But I have to be patient and sit quietly while God shares His plans. It is hard to tell today what my final decision will be. I know I want to go, so super badly. But I’d also like to have a few more Etsy sales before committing because like I mentioned above, I haven’t been planning on going. Weird. Wouldn’t it be “funny” if I went, even though I didn’t plan? Because that would be SO not like me :)

I am a gal of security. I like to be confident. I like to plan ahead {although nowadays I don’t plan too far ahead. Things can change fast!} I like to play it safe. However… when I first started Gussy {and even some moments today} I wasn’t able to play it safe. Being Gussy required a lot of risks. To make it work I had to be risky. At the time I didn’t realize the magntude those risks could have, but now they are unfolding beautifully before my eyes. Some times I get a little nervous about all this… Where will Gussy take me?

Hah, More like where will Gussy take Gussy?!

However, with all the risk-taking there is no doubt I’d do things differently if offered the chance. I have too much love for my sewing machine and The Sweat Shop to stop and drop. Sigh… I am in love.

So. Still working on attending Blissdom. Still working hard to keep The Sweat Shop going full-time. Still working hard to focus on God and His plans than my little worries that come and go in a flash.

I have to stop typing now and cut fabric. Gussy needs to shush and sew :)

xo!